Tribute To Rania

Suka sgt lagu ni.. My little girl by Maher Zain... 

This song is for you.. My Little Rania Nuur..^_^

My little Rania : 2 months old

You are a miracle
You are a blessing from above
You brought joy to my soul
And pleasure to my eyes

In my heart I can feel it
An unexplainable feeling
Being a father (mother)
The best thing that I could ever ask for

Just thinking of you makes me smile
Holding you, looking in your eyes
I’m so grateful for having you
And everyday I pray
I pray that you’ll find your way

You know I love you, I love you
My little girl, my little girl
I ask God to bless you, and protect you always
My little girl, my little girl

You’re like a shining star
So beautiful you are
My baby girl
You light up my world

I pray that I’ll get the chance
To be around and watch you grow
And witness your first steps
And the first time when you will call me “dad” (Ibu )

I could spend hours watching you
You’re so innocent, so wonderful and pure
O God I can not express my gratitude!
But I’ll raise her good, ‘cause all I want is to please You
And now I pray You’ll guide her steps forever

I luv you Rania..^_^

RANIA NUUR BINTI EDRE: The Arrival. part 2

The first 1 week with Rania was tough.
Walaupun hubby cuti 1 minggu, the whole week was not for us to settle down and rest at home.
Rania came home on day 2 of life, only to come back to the hospital on day 3 because of very low degree fever and jaundice.
ABO incompatibility.. aku O+, hubby and rania A+
Rania was put under single phototherapy although her serum bilirubin was only 180 which is below photo level.
We return home the next day.

Tapi  kitorg still kena berulang alik ke KK penampang setiap hari to check for her SB.
Setiap kali check mesti rasa berdebar..berdoa setiap saat semoga SB turun.
Tapi tak turun2 jugak..240, 257, 268 and later on 284
When it reach above 280, we know that we have to spend another night in the ward.
I cried.. I really don't want to be admitted again.
Aku masih rasa sangat penat lepas bersalin.
Then kena berulang alik ke klinik with long waiting hours..
Rasa macam tak sanggup nak ke hospital pulak.
Masa ni, all I want is to spend time with hubby n rania at home and NOT in the ward.

Then hubby decide nk pegi private hospital..hoping that the ward will be much more comfortable.
Tapi sebenarnya sma je.. takde yang sama dgn rumah.
Kesian tegok Rania kena berbogel duduk dalam cot bawah lampu biru.
Kitorg yg adult dan berbaju ni pun rasa sejuk..apa lagi Rania yang masih baby dan tak bebaju.
Mula2 dia nak la duduk bawah lampu tu, lepas tu dia dh nages2 nak kitorg peluk dia je..kesian sangat..:(
bila dia dh refuse nak duduk dlm cot, we request to be discharged.
Apa guna lagi duduk hospital kalau Rania tak nak phototherapy.
So kitorang balik rumah..hoping that the SB will decrease naturally.

"Ibu, sejuk la..Nia xnak tido sini..sob sob.."

Alhamdulillah..SB Rania slowly reduce and we manage to rest at home.
By the time kitorg settle kt umah, hubby punya paternity leave pun habis..
Sian kat hubby, he only manage to rest at home for 1 day.
Apa2 pun, he's a great husband and dad
He's our HERO

"My Daddy My Hero"

Thank You ALLAH for all the ni'mah..:)


Part 3 coming soon..

RANIA NUUR BINTI EDRE: The Arrival. part 1

It has been 2 months since Rania came into our life.
And it has been more than 2 months since i last wrote here.
Kehidupan berubah banyak sejak Rania datang.
Me n my husband were busy adapting to new life.
Lets go through the event...

20th March 2012

Hubby: bila baby nak keluar ni?
Me: Bila baby dh ready dia keluar la..
This is Day2 of my maternity leave.
Late at night, before we went to sleep, hubby buat vaginal examination.
The head has engaged but the os is still closed, just like the week before.
Hubby: Belum lagi kot..
And we went to sleep..

21st March 2012
1 am..
Aku terjaga because ade weird feeling at my tummy.
Being our first time, I was wondering "Is this contraction?"
Tengok sebelah, hubby tgh tido nyenyak.
Tggu la kejap lagi.. takut false alarm pulak.
Masa tu the frequency is about 1 contaction in 10 minutes.
Later on, around 3 am..
The frequency increases to about 2 in 10 minutes.
Sakit pun dh makin bertambah, but still bearable.
At that time I am very sure that it was "the contraction".
It is not the usual tightening.
"Bie, bie, bangun.."
"Hmm?" eyes still close..
"Lyana rasa macam dh ade contraction pain"
"HAH?"
He touched my tummy,waiting for the contraction to come.
"Bie rasa mmg contraction la.." he looked at me. "So nak g hospital x ni? ke nak tggu lagi?"
Aku blur2 je.. xtau nak decide mcm mana.
Last2 bie buat decision nak ke hospital.
Kalo tggu lagi smpai pagi, takut esok pagi jalan jam pulak.
Sempat pulak mandi dulu before pegi hospital.
"Nak bagi tau family member lain ke?"
"Tggu la dulu, nanti kalo betul dh in labor baru bgtau k.."

3.30am
We arrived at the busy (as always) PAC.
"Eh, Dr Edre. Wife doctor dh nak besalin ke?"
Memandangkan hubby dh habis posting OnG, so sumer staff kt situ kenal dia.
Malam tu sumer HO lelaki kt PAC
So hubby is the one yg uruskan semua for me.. clerking, PE, CTG..etc
Masa tu os baru 2cm dan ward sgt2 penuh.
CTG reactive.
We decide to go back tapi tiba2 ade pulak bed kosong kt second class.
So hubby booked the bed for me.
By the time settle kt ward, its already 7 am.
Hubby balik kejap ambil barang2 yg tetinggal, beli breakfast..

7-10 am
The pain becomes more frequent
Sakit sangat2..
Aku tau la besalin tu sakit tapi tak expect pulak sakit sampai macam ni..huhu.

10.50am
Os 4cm..entering active phase of labour.
Given pethidine.
ARM and then ditolak ke labour room.
lepas bagi Pethidine, rasa ngantuk tapi sakit mcm tak berkurang pun..

12pm
"Bie, sakit pasa mcm nak berak la.. tak tahan dh ni"
(Memang sakit sangat!!!)
Sister Juriah dtg check.
"Dh fully ni.."
Ok, get ready for the baby to come..

12.32pm
Baby out after almost 1/2 hour pushing.
The LOP position makes it a bit difficult.
ITS A GIRL!!!
She was bigger than we expected
But Alhamdulillah..she's a healthy baby girl..

to be continue....

Menatap wajahmu

38 weeks 3 days
Aku dan hubby sedang ternanti-nanti sign from baby
Setiap hari tertanya2.."bila baby nak keluar ni..?"
Kadang2 rasa rindu sgt kat baby sampai mengalir air mata
Padahal baby sentiasa bersamaku dalam perut, tak pernah berpisah
Tapi hati tetap diusik rindu untuk menatap wajahnya, memeluk dan menciumnya
Kami terus menunggu hinga baby bersedia,
Bersedia memulakan perjalanannya keluar dari rahim Ibu,
Bersedia melihat dunia yang penuh cabaran
Bersedia menggalas tanggungjawabnya sebagai hambaNya, sebagai khalifahNya.

Tapi dalam ketidak-sabaran aku dan hubby,
Hati tiba2 disapa rasa takut,
Takut tidak mampu menggalas tanggungjawab sebagai Ibunya
Takut tidak cukup sabar melayan kerenahnya
Takut kecundang ditengah jalan dalam mendidiknya

Ya, Allah..beri aku, hubby dan baby kekuatan
Untuk menjalankan tanggungjawab kami masing2
Tunjukkan kami jalanMu
Permudahkan urusan kami
Jangan biarkan kami melupakanMu
Jangan tinggalkan kami tanpa rahmatMu
Kami akan berusaha dan kami serahkan segalanya padaMu

TERM!!

Exactly 37 weeks now.
Baby can come out anytime
Hari2 rasa nervous..
Especially bila sorg2 kat rumah n encik hubby kerja.

Alhamdulillah..anemia resolved
At least for now..:)
Baby pun growing very2 well..
My FMS pun ckp, "cantik je nombor dia setiap kali scan"
i.e: parameter memang sebijik ikut date..SKEMA!! :p

"My little caliph,
Dh ready ke nk kuar ni?"

Ibu n Abah dh tak sabar nak jumpa baby..
Abah tu asyik je nak claim "Baby anak abah.."
Ibu tau Abah jeles sebab baby 24 hours ikut Ibu pegi mana2 je..
Hehe..kan Abah? kan?

Ya, Allah..
Ampunkan dosa2 kami..
Selamatkan dan permudahkanlah semuanya untuk kami..
Kami serahkan segala urusan ditanganMu..

Ibu tau baby suka duduk macam ni..kalo scan je tunjuk b***ot..:p